God is always at work. These days, I feel like I am constantly talking to Him, praying in my head and heart, desperate for His help in one area or another.
You know when you can’t shake a thought or feeling about something? Times when you can’t think about anything else until you do what you’re supposed to? Well, that has been me for the last couple of weeks (years, really.) God continues to press upon me the idea of writing.
When I’m doing Bible study and there’s a personal reflection question, the answer is always, always, always my writing. What has God been calling you to do? What is something you know you should be doing and you are not? What is an area where you could grow? The answer for me is always my writing.
Most recently, a question was posed in a way I’d never thought of before. Is there an area of your life you’ve been disobedient in? Disobedient? Goodness, I’d never thought of it that way! Am I being disobedient by not following through with writing?
Here’s the thing. I don’t want to be disobedient, I just don’t know where to start. I don’t know what to write. There are so many possibilities! Should I continue the memoir about Ian’s miraculous journey? The last time I touched that was in May of 2013 and he hadn’t climbed Kilimanjaro or run the full marathon he trained to much for. Or should I write about my own struggles? God knows I have perspectives from parenting, marriage, anxiety and depression, and living the everyday Christian life. I could reach out to magazines about disability and family life and write articles for them. I could write Biblical devotions to encourage others in their faith. My dream would be to write about travel. I’d love to write about the places I’ve visited with my family and get paid for it. Imagine that!! There are so many options I don’t even know where to start. Not to mention, will it be any good??? I’m paralyzed by fear.
The most recent step on my toes was a day in my study suggested I might be going through a test of obedience. God is continuing to bring writing to my mind, and I am continuing to stall. Am I being tested? Will I be obedient? I want to be! I just don’t know how.
In all my pondering, I’ve come to the following conclusion: I still don’t know where I should start with my writing. But, I believe in God, and I believe He knows. He will show me… if I ask.
James 1:5 says, “But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him as of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.”
Matthew 7:7 says, “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.”
Proverbs 2:6 says, ” For the LORD gives wisdom; From His mouth come knowledge and understanding.”
I will continue to pray for God to show me the steps to take. Some of the ladies in my Bible study group are praying for me in this. Another group of ladies I just met a couple of weeks ago in a writers group are praying, too. God is so good to surround me with prayer warriors.
Because I feel like every lesson I go through can be shared with others, I urge you to ask yourself the following questions. Is there something you need to hear about from God? Is there a question you need an answer to in your own life? Do you need to pursue something but don’t know how?
Ask Him! He will answer and give generously if we ask in faith.
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